Before I met you,
I was a bird. And my wings
were strong
and my feet were quick
and my feathers were lustrous and steady.
–
Before I met you,
I was the moon. And my glow
was radiant,
and my core was resolute,
and my crescent was sharp and smooth to the touch.
–
Before I met you,
I was a seed. And my roots
were rugged
and my stems were tenacious
and my leaves were monumentally green and growing.
–
But you weren’t here to feed me,
to water my soil or please me.
I didn’t realize I was kindling,
meat stacked on bone,
a body to own, to torture and
contain and enslave.
–
And when you left,
I became a drop in the ocean,
another tear cried,
another storm waged,
another tidal wave erupted,
another spritz of salty mist in the air.
–
And after,
I sewed together
mist and glow and root and feather
and twisted it in bloody muscle,
tied it in smoke and flames,
and cased it all in a taut skin of mica,
more powerful than you could have ever imagined.
–
I felt what it was like to breathe again.
Set the air on fire again.
–
I am a bird, a phoenix rising,
I am a tree, a willow singing.
I am the moon, reborn in blood,
in stardust everlasting.
–
I was. I am. I will be.
Everlasting.